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not the one i need
to curb my jealousy what's good
for her, is not good for me i try
to smile when i complain try to smile
when i complain i
can't explain what bothers me i'd
like to think that i'm always clear but i know, i know i'd
like to think that i act sincere but i don't i try
to bend my rigid ways i snap
at her, she walks away i
speak the truth, it doesn't pay speak the
truth, it doesn't pay i can't
control the things i say i'd
like to think that i'm always fair but i know, i know i'd
like to think that i always care but i don't i
twist her words she comes undone this little
game has lost its fun i
realize we're not the same realize
we're not the same! realize we're
not the one i'd
like to think that i could be wrong but i know, i know i'd
like to think that we could go on but i don't, i don't |
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This story is a
composite of three girlfriends in my evolution as a boyfriend, starting with my
high school sweetheart. I'll say
it… I was a prick. Didn't know
better. But I believe this is the case
for many of us. It is through our
experiences with our ex's that we learn a lot about ourselves and how to
relate, enabling us to eventually find and hold onto the one. This song is
the yin to yang of Take Me To the Sun
- on many levels. First the
obvious… my teachers at Berklee would have
insisted that the proper title for Sun
should have been You Could Be the One,
but I wasn't about to fully commit cliché suicide. Also, like Sun, it's in that category of songs
that seems to do consistently well for me underground. Sun,
I find is suitable in the mornings, while Not
the One lends itself to late evenings. Both are in the key of E: Take Me To the Sun in sunny E major; Not the One in moody E minor. Mood, like the sun, can be cyclical. I had
previously released this song on my other efforts, both solo and with
band. Normally, I would have opted to
move forward by now with a new selection, but the pairing was too strong to
resist. With that in mind, I gave the song a new spin by adding melodic
"bookends" with my voice, as well as altering the instrumental
interlude. If I could only
go back and tell them how sorry I was for being such a bonehead…. What do they care, though. I hear they're happily married with
children! |
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4.
abundant
lack of motivation 5.
vulnerable 8.
habit 9.
lovely
lady 10. can’t go |